Originally Posted by
mje124 
HELP please good people
am 19 days now and the initial rush of gladness is still here but now I am starting to look back
ALL the things I did drunk are now all I can see
lost job / husband lost job / money worries forget all the friends that have deserted me ...don't blame them
just realising what a selfish person I was and want to turn the clock back
know I can't but how do you cope ????
mike
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You sure ya want to turn back the clock? It could have turned out worse.
This is pretty common. First of to cope don't drink. It won't help.
Remember yer not a bad man, just a sick one. But there's a solution
if you work for it.
From your previous tread:
"anyway getting a sponsor from my home group at AA....."
If you decided you want what we have and are
willing to go to any lengths to get it then you are ready to take certain steps.
I'd suggest ya decide ya want what we have and get into action. Call your sponsor and get working on the steps.
The promises of the program- the promises that are in the big book will materialize
If you work for them.
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
Pray like crazy
Go to meetings
Work the program
Don't drink inn between.
I never woulda thought I'd be able to look at my past and be ok with it. But the program made it possible. It no longer haunts me. I'm not ashamed of what I have done back then. It is one of my greatest possessions I have today.
All due to the program in action.