EveningRose

I haven't talked to my mother in about 7 years. I don't actually remember the last year I talked to her, only that it was on her birthday. I just never called her again. She just never called me, either. And now she walks by me in stores and church with her head down, pretending she doesn't see me.

I have no idea why she does this, and I don't particularly care.

I haven't bothered explaining to her why I never called again because she apparently doesn't care, hasn't asked, and I have enough history to know that anything I say will simply be explained back to me as why that was all my fault, anyway.

For the record, I never called again for two reasons. One was that she is so incessantly negative and critical of everyone--on top of which I learned since moving home that she is like that with and to me, not to my siblings. I don't care to spend my life grousing about other people and she refuses to have any other conversation with me, no matter how hard I try to turn the conversation to positive things.

The other is that I finally understood from an ugly comment she made that she will always blame me for any problem between me and anyone--even if it's a near stranger. She actually believes things with no rational basis whatsoever. I called her on one of them, and she looked very confused when she couldn't explain why she thought it, but then snapped right back to her reality. Again, very strange. I think she's a narcissist to the point of real mental illness and delusion.