Im at 48 days. Im afraid to drink even once because I know if I woke up hungover and feeling like crap I'd start drinking again. Like that morning. That's just how my drinking went. I'm out of that cycle and so afraid to go back. Just start over today. This is my 4th try at sobriety in the last 4 years or so. This is the furthest I've made it. I usually fail after a few weeks. A month tops. But I learned from every experience and failure. I learned strategies and what my mistakes were. Just start again and keep trying till you get it right.