How are you today Scared?
My man, you are 26, 6'3 and 290 pounds. You have a hole future ahead of you and a physique/genetics going for you.
Count your blessings, kick the the bottle to the curb. Or tackle it football style!
I could almost bet my next pay check, that in a few weeks/months you can be a pilar on SR. Helping others. Make this your final stand, last day one, last time feeling like your dying.