Thank you. I probably could have reworded my list better, but yes the same point you made. I do not want to be with someone who can't hold a job, doesn't complete terms of probation, isn't responsible, etc., etc.
I think a part of me feels guilty or ashamed of leaving him behind. And I would be money on it, if asked, he would say he would want me to move on and not be stuck in this place I'm in. How come I can't listen? I've been in such a funk these past months, and if he knew it were in part of his actions, I bet he would say he wouldn't be worth the energy I've put into thinking about him.
I also bet if I entered into another relationship, he would be happy for me, and wish me the best. I wish I could say the same about him and his new gf. It's just that I believe it's going to end up in a disaster.
I hate that he can't see what I see. And I hate that I can't see what I should see.