It's terrible. It's like as I slowly get my strength back this afternoon, my mind keeps running back to, well OF COURSE you got cheated on. You're broke, you've gained 40 pounds, always anxious, can't sleep, etc. and who would want to be faithful to someone like that.
But I know it's just my mind trying to throw a pity party to lure me away from my sobriety and forget that drinking causes all of that. Think I'll try eating a bowl of ice cream and watching a movie.