I see two questions posed by Bob: 1- Is sober life better than drunk life? and, 2 - Is this the life I was wanting or had in mind?
My answer to the first question is a YES.
My answer to the second question is harder, because I didn't really have a particular kind of life in mind. It was a radical idea to me that I would be experiencing all of life sober. That was about as far as I got. I mean, I have dreams and goals. I think we all do or did at some point. Those didn't change.
The question for me now is: Am I ok with life being this way? We live, experience some things, and then die. That's about all I know. Camus et al. talk about absurdity and futility. This part stands out to me "But it is tragic only at the rare moments when it becomes conscious." I happen to be in one of those rare moments the past few days, and am face to face with death again.
Tomorrow I will probably be happy to be alive again.