Thank you guys and yes you are right!!
I have booked to go glazier walking in Iceland next month and also to go skiing so I have a lot to look forward to and all very wholesome. It is letting go of the old life which scares me because these are my friends. I have however been meeting them at lunchtimes instead in a coffee shop so thats working. I feel more for my partner because he has noticed the changes and think it is down to him which of course it isn't. We are only a few months into the relationship so still early days but he is the most supportive person ever :-)