Originally Posted by finaltime

I also did this exact same thing. Don't beat yourself up, we are addicts this is what we do. I was going to AA and justifying because I was not drinking. I even picked up an 8 month chip while on pills. I was able to get rid of the obsession to drink right away, but hasnt been the case with the pills. The pill voice wakes up when I am bored, hurt from a gym injury but I know its never one pill. And the detox is the hell I hate. The chasing of the pills is so time consuming and the money. The freedom we can feel today by just not having to pop a pill to get out of bed is a gift. I love that. I don't miss getting up, grabbing a handful of pills and laying back down to feel that high. That stupid high that only came that one time a day. I HATE IT ALL.

We are free from the bondage of addiction for today only. Take it easy these feelings will get better.