Originally Posted by jryan19982

Its a very gradual downward slope. You dont know you are trending downward until years later you look up and think to yourself "What have I done?".



So I never got arrested, didnt lose my house, family, job etc. But I did lose my sense of feeling good without a substance, I lost my sanity, I lost my natural desire to be happy, I lost a lot in an emotional way. I lost an overall sense of wellbeing and was replaced with unhappiness, stress, and anxiety.

I made huge strides this last time around, and was very very pleased with my progress and was pleased with the way my life was going. Then in one night, I remembered what is was like to be in a loathing pit of horror. But as many said it doesnt have to happen again. It could all end. Its my choice and one I have to make.