Thanks Courage. Unfortunately the friends I feel that I can open up to about this live far from me, so I cannot spend Saturdays with me. I think you are right that it helps them too. Being with such people is great and the support is wonderful.
My friends in Miami are all connected to my work and while they all know I am a recovering addict, I cannot be so open with them.
The support of my far-away friends really saved me. I think that is what I looked for when I went to meetings, but I have to just accept 12-step recovery for what it is and not go looking there for a kind of support that it just cannot give.