DD,
While you may not damage your body and job prospects to the same extent as daily alcoholics, you are still playing russian roulette with your life if you drink to blackout - depending on your behaviors you may risk auto and other accidents, assaults, arrest, drug overdose, social embarrassment, and loss of friends. Not to mention the terror of not knowing what you did the night before. It ain't worth it, my friend. Ask me how I know.
You can do this!