You can break the cycle Novie, you can regain those hopes and dreams, this doesn't have to be it, you can have nothing less than a slice of happiness in your life!!
Signing up to SR was a great decision, you'll find loads of support here, make a commitment that this is Day 1, we all had to start with a Day 1, then go 1 day at a time, keep it simple, reach out for support when you need it, SR is here 24/7/365, also the Dr appointment is a very positive step too!!
I used to think I could never stop drinking too, but with the right support and the great bunch of people I found here on SR, I was able to break away from the chains of alcohol, and then guess what? those hopes and dreams will start to emerge once again, the person we were before alcohol comes alive again!!
You can do this Novie, and SR is in your corner!!
