Hi and welcome to SR
There are many people here who successfully worked through similar situations you are in, with relapses after many years sober. Look around!
I would say, instead of thinking about what you don't want be and wondering whether you are or not, focus on what you
do need to be in order to pull your life together. Sober. From that, forward: how to achieve that in your current state. So many possible approaches, you also must be familiar with many if you had stayed sober for 7 years in the past. You may need to tweak that a little though this time around.
Again, many people have done it, you can, too!