Timeiskey -
I was in a verbally abusive relationship years ago for 4 years. He cut me to the core. Know why we broke up??? One of his relatives pulled me to the side of the road to tell me he was getting married and she was pregnant! Oh did I forget to mention that he and I had NOT broken up yet!!
So how did I get over it - I grieved a lot! It made me physically ill. When I tell you that it took a HUGE support system to dig me out of my hole. It did not happen overnight, you are human for goodness sake. Cut yourself a brake and don't be so harsh. There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you. It is HIS loss your gain.
Want to dislike him again? Sit back and remember how it really was to be with him.
I am sorry you are feeling this way honey - but you have to believe that you are better off.
((hugs))