Talking myself to sleep...
I'm afraid to shut my eyes and just be quiet with myself because I'm so tired and I'm just gonna start crying.
- Why don't you want to cry?
I want to be strong. I want to be happy. I don't want to feel bad. If I'm "busy" with the computer open, then I won't have to be quiet with my thoughts. I hate my thoughts about all this late at night. :-(
- Awww. Well, you're already crying now, so what's next?
Maybe I can just get under the covers and let myself cry more.
- That sounds like a good idea, hun. And look, your cat just came in to keep you company!
He's great for snuggling.
- Sweet dreams, ShineBright. You'll feel better in the morning. I'm so proud of you for taking care of yourself.
<3