It's terrifying thinking back on it huh Niamh? I live alone and I remember waking at 3 or 4 am after a binge still drunk. Then the hell starting to descend around 11am. I'd sit curled up on the couch watching show after show on Netflix trying to distract myself from the anguish I was feeling. It would usually be around 24hrs after that before I was finally able to get a couple hours sleep and I was lucky if I could stomach a single banana over the span of 2 two days.
Yea so no matter how tempted I am on some days, depressed or anxious, I know that drinking would send be right back to that. I don't know if I have it in me to survive another one of those. I think I would break me for sure mentally at the very least.