Being happy and out with friends or on a date with my boyfriend has always been a trigger for me. And therein lies the rub; I'm generally a happy person when I'm sober! For me, I just have to remember that that one or two drinks one night will turn to more the next, and in the following week, until I'm back to the suicidal mess I always become when I fall down the rabbit hole.
As others said, though, don't beat yourself up for "messing up". Just remember how you're feeling now, and try to remember that there's no need to feel that way again - just stay happy!
