thanks a lot you guys for The support. It really helps. I just got a new house today it's really nice I've been accomplishing a lot and yes I do forget to take baby steps. I just get so overwhelmed with things don't happen all at once. Still doing good closing out Day six. I still miss him but I'm glad I'm able to do things and have my own thought process without worrying about him being a Debbie downer and moping about everything. I think Next I might look into getting into college. Although I don't know how to do that with this stupid job and three kids to take care of. But I suppose if there's a will there's a way. Baby steps!