Hi Tired,
I can drink. I can go to the supermarket and buy hundreds of pounds of alcohol and sit here drinking as much as I can.
While that might not seem like a bad idea when the AV kicks in, it sure is the next day, when I am throwing up, splitting headache and can't work.
I am not in AA, my own personal view is they focus on the 12 steps because it works, but in order to work, you have to commit to the program 100% and I am not prepared to do that.
I am not an alcoholic, I am a person who used to drink, but now doesnt because it is easier for me to abstain than moderate. Simple.
No labels, not titles, no expectations and certainly no higher power involved.
I make it through each day by appreciating what I have and could have lost.
Find a solution that works for you, AA isnt for everyone, that would be too easy wouldn't it.