Originally Posted by
retroactive 
Maybe I'll try it again. I know it would make me a lot happier of a person, today has literally been hell. I have no desire to be where I am ever again.
There is a good step in the right direction, like many others have said acceptance is the start of the journey.
It is difficult to accept, but once you get past the thought of changing such a big part of your life, you will know that you are doing the right thing.
Shoot me a PM anytime this weekend if you want to talk, you can do this!