Originally Posted by
retroactive 
I want to say that I'll stay sober, but it'd be a lie. I know that I am going to try drinking moderately this weekend.
Honesty is good!
Most of us had to go through the trials and tribulations of attempts at moderation. For the majority who have a real problem it proves not to be plausible. I too thought "this time, I will be able to moderate". For me, it never turned out that way even though I truly meant what I said. That's the issue.......
Retro, I did think when I quit I'd have nothing to do. Turns out I have more friends now and do more things! I am no longer limited by the bondage of booze......
I understand exactly how you feel, however.
Be safe, consider total abstinence
Peace