Same when my XAH was in rehab. One fine day he called me and said they were eating at a local casino! I about fell over. They also went to WalMart sometimes.
My friend, I think that more meetings sounds good. I also think you are working on yourself and just don't realize it. Re-read your post. You are doing some good things for you. I know your mind is exhausted with worry. I wish I knew some magic to make that go away, and can only say that the more strength you gain, the more you will be able to push that away and focus on yourself.
Tight hugs.
Originally Posted by
Fate2012 
When my AH was in rehab he could leave-they would have to sign in and out. They could attend meetings and go out to eat. The center had random drug tests so if anyone tested positive they were kicked out of the program.