thanks for the support people. to be honest it wasn't the death that spurred it so much. the dog had a place in my heart for sure but not enough to lead me to drink. just another excuse. it was more the busy week, feeling keyed up and being close to three weeks again that got the better of me.
I have had six months dry before back in 09' so I know it's possible, but I need to find ways to keep my anxiety and excitement in check.