Hey there ,
Life and death is full of up's and down's , if we are sober if we drink things happen regardless . .
My life with alcohol included was mostly rubbish, sober there are far better days and the painful days pass quicker and you go through things naturally feeling stuff .
Sometimes i worried i'd fall apart but it only FELT like that it wasn't real .
Early sobriety , the first few months is a wild ride feeling things i'd not for quite some time and not being able to get away from those feelings, you just got to sit with them and keep on.
Time is a great healer , give yourself more sober time, you can totally do this ..
keep on
m