Dear SR,
I've been away helping with my RADs baby.
Addiction, no matter what to, takes and takes and takes
away everything it possibly can. I've noticed that her
confidence is gone.
It could be the postpartum hormones, but she feels like
a slave to the Subutex...she longs for the days before she
found herself an addict. Such an unforgiving disease that
she has to manage and work on her recovery every day
and some days every hour. She has to remind herself to
never give up or worse to give in.
Her seeing the therapist weekly (yep, 5 days after having
A baby and moving to a new apartment) and her Sub Dr
plus her on line meetings has a lot to do with finding that
key to unlock the door to this misery. She has a plan,
tools, hope and she is in recovery. She's doing all this the
hard way, she wants to be sober, 5 words, plus the work
will bring her to the freedom, the "normalcy" that sobriety
offers. A lifetime of work, but oh so worth it!!
BTW, the baby, a blessing, has shown NO signs at all of any
withdrawals from the Subutex she took while pregnant. All
that worry and what "iffing" wasted so much time and energy.
What will be will be.
I hope this gives others some courage to
look at addiction, tell that AV, that you and you alone can do
this! Get ahead and be prepared, addiction will not give up on
YOU but YOU can stay one step ahead of its path. You have to
want this and have to want and work on recovery forever!! It
can be done! Never give up your hope! I not only speak to the
Addict but to the parents and loved ones who are affected by
this disease. And I DO speak from experience.
Respectfully and thank you SR for all the hope, encouragement,
love and prayers you have shown this momma. Your
support got me thru a frightening time!
TF