JustBreathe....I think you are seeing where this is going. If I remember correctly, your plan was to buy some more time with him....? before the inevitable.
I think that these past weeks is slowly informing you of what is so hard to realize about our alcoholics.
LOL! This is what we call "experience". Experience is a tough teacher, alright, and it teaches us some of our most important lessons....oy, vey!
Right now, the Wolves are still at the edge of the woods...at a somewhat safe distance.
Now is the time that you have to be formulating a plan, in your mind, of what to do when they are finally at the door.
I, also, know how exhausting this is. I have been there.
The thing is, the disease is bigger than we are...and, it is also bigger than they are.
There is no room for compromise with his damn disease. There is no "peaceful co-existence". It is total abstainence and sobriety...or the disease wins.
I wish to God that there was another way.
dandylion