Learned new word "ennui". I would kill for some ennui right now. I am about 2 seconds from putting my hand thru a wall and I need to be calm to deal with a situation that doesn't get to be about me. I'm not punking out...I'm not punking out...this will end....
True powerless and no choice for me was being a kid Cow. I try to remember how far I have come and get myself in so deep I can't get out.
Ahhh **** damn **** ****. Take that swearbot.
Maybe I could just cry for a little.