Hi and welcome to reality.
Many alcoholics are successful and very capable people except when it comes to their compulsive drinking. We need food and water to survive not alcohol. As tough as it seems we will live our life without it and be healthy and feel accomplished.
Continue drinking and if your an alcoholic I guarantee your losses will mount up and a miserable life will occur.
A lot of years ago I got, and stayed, involved along with millions of others in AA.
It will work if you knock away any barriers you may have and follow the directions of the program.
Many resist and fail long term recovery.
Reading and posting here helps a lot as there are some great sober people wanting to help.
BE WELL