Welcome to SR, VT, and congratulations on 9 sober days.
Early sobriety can be difficult but sustained sobriety and recovery is very much worth the effort.
Your addiction is telling that you 'need' to drink. As time goes by, you will realize just what a lie that is. Sobriety and recovery is a very freeing experience; my bet is that once you have achieved it, you will love it.
SR is here for you 24/7/365.