Well, so far as drinking and recovery goes, it was easy.
I drank again and again and again and again and finally the steps of AA looked like kissing a kitten compared to what alcohol was doing to me.
Life is good now, comfortable in my own mind, it's ok to be me, the world is no longer drab, colour has come back, don't worry about much, I've made peace with God, after warring with him most of my life as a vocal atheist.
(ironically I was scared of and talked a lot about something that supposedly, I didn't believe existed..... Crazy huh?)
I have days when I'm glad to be alive, haven't thought about suicide for about 4 months.
It's been awesome so far, and all I had to do was have the willingness to stop trying to do everything my way and take actions I didn't believe in and take direction from a another recovered Alcoholic.