yea ive been seeing a therapist for quite some time now....i realized i had a few issues a long time ago lol....
the biggest thing im going to have to overcome i think is that i feel so guilty for messing things up for her down in florida. i know she made the choice do get high and everything. and in a total fit of blinding rage (i was shaking mad) i sent the msgs.
she was going to go to school in the fall and it seemed like it was a better life down there. even though the whole time she was talking to her using partner and asking him to send her dope she was still physically clean. i cant help but think that i ruined her life by letting the cat out of the bag (even though i think if she knew how to talk to people and take responsibility her gparents would help somehow). and thats not a feeling im very proud of.