Thanks again appreciate the support, im remaining as vigilant as ever, I'm still doing baby steps so I have to keep strong and keep doing the right things. It's just acceptance of being am
Addict that life is going to throw curve balls and temptation at me (even though I wasn't tempted !)!for the rest of my life and i have to be strong enough to deal with it.
I have smoked SO much heroin with that guy over the years it was quite bizarre to know he had some, the dealer was parked there probably expecting/wanting me to hop in, and I had no desire to use/"get on"with him etc etc
A few weeks ago my reactions would have been the opposite. Which is a reminder of what I can be like. So I was proud of myself and surprised myself that i found myself in a totally unexpected situation and didn't have to battle to resist, control any urges to use - I had none, It felt weird, but really good and I felt quite proud of myself! A feeling using/addiction never gives you!!!!! On n up people!