I'm sorry that things came to a head Serper.
There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the main players, including but not limited to AA:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the
Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.
read around, find a way., or ways, that make sense to you, and then give your all.
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