I sure didn't "feel" my early sobriety, you know. I felt beat up, used and suicidal psychotic to be honest. When I quit I was entirely delusional on what side was up. Toasted. I could barely speak to others and when I did they wished I hadn't. Schizophrenic.
Cow, you're way more functional with others than I was when I quit. I was jobless and homeless. My parents let me crash at their place whenever and that in itself was a nuthouse of sorrows.
I think you waiting for feelings of sobriety to make everything jell isn't going to happen and its just wasted time, okay? Sorry, don't mean to be fresh with you, but how can someone as yourself who understands the limits of their ability to feel positive and joy wait around for feelings of whatever??
All I had when I got sober was a belly full of hurt, a heart full of hate, and a mind full of despair. I had given up on feeling good years before I ever finally quit...
You surprise me with your lack of clarity, my good friend Cow.
Good to hear you're not drinking. Seriously awesome.
