Maximus, Don't worry about the Me posts, I do the same too often but this is what we are all here for. To share and help.
I get what you are saying and I am in a similar boat, so I'm not sure I have a solution. For financial and time reasons, so many options are just not a possibility for me and AA has never felt like a good fit either. I think we each have to come up with our own plan.. And find what works for us. I get some good ideas just reading around here on Sr. Don't get discouraged. We can find our way...