Wild One,
Great to see your post, even better to see that you are grabbing hold of the problem and setting out to beat it.
Now from my point of view you are not powerless, you have shown by your decision to do something that you are asserting yourself over alcohol. You did that, nobody else. Feel that power and enjoy it!
On a lighter note talking about the longest journey starting with a single step I was reminded of the story about the tourist lost in the west of Ireland. He had been driving around in circles for hours when he spotted a farmer at a gate. The tourist pulled over and asked the farmer the way to Dublin. The farmer thought for a moment and replied "Well if I was going to Dublin I wouldn't start from here"
Getting away from alcohol is a bit like that, the start is the hard part.
Michael