Every time I felt fear that I would do what I always did before when I was scared...which in my past was definately try to drink the feeling away and I didn't do it....my fear diminished and my confidence grew stronger.
Push through this. You can do it. Just tell yourself so what. I'm scared. I can either be scared...or drunk and scared. Me? I choose just scared.
I think you are doing great. 99% of solving a problem is identifying what the real problem is.
Now go make those awesome enchiladas and think how nice that will be for that family. That will make them and you feel good. You and I both know how drinking makes one feel. Trust me. I know. I lived it too.
You are doing fabulous working through this!