I know for me in the past when I had become consumed with confusion, confusion equaled me not accepting reality and remaining in that hoping, wishing, what if state of denial because the reality was not something I was ready to fully handle.
Now is the time to fully focus on the resources you will need in order to get out and begin working on that plan. Summer is a long way off many more months of hurt and pain for you to deal with, not good.
If the resources needed are money I'd be thinking of family and friends who may be able to afford you a loan.