Charlie - like you, I actually feel like a hypocrite even responding to your post b/c I am NOT one who has the 1 year or 6 months or anything close to it sober. I've been trying this for a while, and sometimes it feels like 2 steps forward, 1 step back. In fact, I see your join date is Jan 2014, same as me. But I will say this, I don't think you have to necessarily think of it as "starting over". You may start back at Day 1 if you're counting, but you DO still have the month and a half behind you. Its not gone b/c you made a mistake. At least for me, the more long stretches of sober time I was able to put together made me more convinced that its what I want. I still mess up. I really do, and I don't know why. But at least I KNOW what it feels like w/o waking up dry heaving, w/o waking up sick to my stomach...and you do too. So yea, dust yourself and let's keep coming here, ok?