Dear SR and of course Dear "Uncle" Vale and "Aunt" Ann!
Ok, ok, ok already! I've tried a few times to post and even attend the Tuesday night SR meeting, however, some sweet precious baby Jack is calling...
Everything is going well, sleepless nights and all! We are still in MN, gonna attempt to make the 5 hour turned 9 hour trip to WI and their new home.
Stories, first the CPS fears...they're true, they drug urine and stool test the baby as soon as he is delivered. He passed with flying colors! I knew he would but the nagging "what iffing" I always seem to do, lingers on...
He has a full head of Jet black hair! So lucky! He has a traumatic birth...both shoulders, a head and one arm all popped out and and had to be delivered all at once, which caused a lot of bruising, but no shoulder fracture. The OB/GYN said it's not uncommon, but it sure scared me. The Dr was wonderful she didn't panick, just pulled and tugged, hard, and he was delivered. I'm sure you ladies reading this, remember and might be thinking "ouch"!!! Yep a BIG ouch!
He has grey eyes. He's so long! He is very "spry" I call it, lifting his head up and looking around. He learned as with my daughter, how to nurse and is doing that pretty good.
ABSOLUTELY NOT ONE SINGLE SIGN OF WITHDRAWALS!!!! I wanted to shout that out to any expectant RAs who sit and worry and fear like my daughter did. What will be will be. If God feels the need to have the baby withdraw from Subutex than it will be. This little Jack is calm and sweet and not showing any signs, yet. They monitored him constantly. He cried when he's hungry or when it's Vales turn to change a poopy diaper. But no screaming uncontrollably or unusual startle movements or abnormal symptoms.
But, my face hurts from this constant proud smile it has on it! It's been so long since I have smiled...or been feeling normal.
See SR friends and parents...we can show addiction the door-out!!
Other than not much sleep, my daughter is getting frustrated with "baby comes first needs" which I expected, all is well and hopeful in Grandma Twofishs world
My story, SR, used to be so sad, doom and gloom and infected with the Codie virus, and I let it happen...then, with alot help of a few hundred SR members patiently supporting me, my meetings and taking care of me, I let all that go...I learned how to fix myself. It can happen, hope is alive. God has mercy. Please, all you mommas, and Vale and all who take the time to read this, stop now, let it go, if only for a second and breathe, if only for a second, smile for little Jack and all the newborn babies born to mommas who fell to their knees to that dreadful disease of addiction. There is hope...there is always hope.
Respectfully and fondly missing you,
TF