thanks for that great post EndGameNYC.
I found that when relapses happen, my brain becomes like swiss cheese, and I easily get confused because my brain disfunction is at an all time high. take a look at your decision to drive to two different liquor stores while intoxicated, that is just as bad a decision as to continue to drink. Unfortunately, our brains are just not functioning right when in the initial stages of sobriety, and adding in alcohol completely overwhelms the delicate brain chemistry we have been able to build....
This is such a fragile state, I really hope you can do something to stop those habits.
SR is great, as is AA, as is AVRT. Personally, I like the personal contact of AA. it helps me to have a face to face connection with many people. It also allows me to do some of the difficult emotional learning I did not do because I was under the influence for much of my adult life.
Keep reaching out, you can do this!