Welcome Aniol,
In my humble opinion getting consistently drunk or sporadically binging are both dangerous paths to follow. I have experience in both camps. Perhaps you are not at the point of no return yet, if so all the power to ya. Take an extended break and see where it goes. I am somewhat like MNS1, sometimes can manage to only have a couple, but it certainly is daunting. Other times I just go off to the point of black out because it takes so god damn much to get me drunk these dayz. Either way my drinking is just too darn unpredictable for me to be comfortable with. Good to hear you are musical, I have been playing guitar on and off since age 8. Good luck with whatever you decide to try; you will find good support here.