I add to the above conversations and advice, go out and have fun if you're able. Why not? What is it going to hurt? ((Shrugs))
Reason why I (stupidly) am nice over and over and over to my xABF is because I am co-dependent. I think in my little brain that maybe, just maybe, he will get his S together and be the man I want him to be. He (and most sig others on here) has never been any different than what I have been dealing with for over 7 years. I am actually more messed up than him because at least he won't change or bend his will for me. Hmmmmm, go figure that one out.