Hi whatamigoingtodonow,
I just wanted you to know I have a broken heart too. You are not alone. And it didn't matter whether it was an alcoholic or not...it still hurt. I have had my heart broke by people with severe problems and by people who didn't have all that many. My last one was a pretty normal guy and I can't even say really anything bad about him. But still. It hurts like hell.
So I guess all I'm trying to say is our hearts hurt whenever we lose someone we care about. Our hearts hurt when we have a dream and it doesn't turn out to be what we wanted or needed it to be. But remember this please. Your heart hurts because you have a deep capacity to love. You. You brought that to the table. You now know that you have that. And you can take that capacity to love to bring it to yourself and to another person who has the same capacity and will bring it to you.
And no one can ever take that away from you.
I hope you find some peace. You will in time. Just take care of yourself. You deserve it.
We are going to be okay. (((Hug)))