Hi there. I have something for you. I'm a mom of 4 who would drink alone and mostly when putting them to bed/ or they were in bed and after only (lol) 9 years of drinking some wine and 2 shots or so of vodka a night I have damaged my liver and can't get lie insurance. I may not see my kids grow old and graduate or get married. I hope I do and my liver can recover but I won't know for about a year. That's scary - think about that. Look at your kids and imagen how much you'll miss.
If you need more, think of how you're poisoning your body. You deserve more then that - you deserve to be loved and cared for and not poisoned.