Cravings here too
I need to be talked down.
Right now, I'm only remembering the "benefits" of alcohol. I mostly drank alone and when I didn't, yes, I made a mess of things, embarrassed myself and the list goes on.
This is day five for me. I didn't go through any major withdrawal (this is common for me) so I don't have that scaring me off. Don't get me wrong, I don't want withdrawals, but I don't have that ammo in my pocket.
Mostly when I drank, the kids were in bed and it would be me, my vodka and my hobbies. Internet and tv. I didn't harm anyone (i'm not talking about physical effects which remains to be seen). I just had a good time. My thoughts would be more creative, I'd feel numbed from the world and it just felt good.
I don't mean this to trigger anyone. I'm just trying to make sure I don't make light of this.