Feeling for you stewy. I remember having awful depression and anxiety. It really is debilitating and I remember feeling like I was losing myself and going mad. It was like the world and myself were in slow motion. Went on one type of antidepressant but they just gave me nightmares/insomnia and dry eyes. I switched to sertraline and it worked a treat. Go back to the docs and have a chat. Your answers not in the bottle.
Whatever you do DO NOT DRINK!!!! These feelings will pass. You will get better. Hang on in there