Originally Posted by
chloebaby 
I can't believe I gave up. I am so clueless what to do.
Time to be less scared of AA, and more scared about the path you are headed down if you keep drinking.
Plus, there are other methods to get sober besides AA. But none of them entail waving a wand and making drinking go away. They all take work, take committment, take acceptance that you can never, ever, drink again.