Originally Posted by
Magellan 
...maybe this is only a small step in my recovery, but for me it solidifies my awareness, acknowledgment and now acceptance that alcohol doesn't enhance anything.
If this has been a stumbling point for you, then good for you for finally recognizing it, as you've been struggling a while now to remain alcohol free.
I suggest you remove drinking entirely from the equation. Because the AV is just likely to try another tact, to find something else alcohol does for you.
Good luck.